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a girl who likes to be hyper. being hyper is like a daily routine for me(: so if you see me emo/sad/angry, it means something is very wrong. But nontheless, i'll still entertain you with my randomness and life(: im also attached toTHE FBC CLIQUE where only fab people are in it like FADHLI, CHERRY and MEand obviously, I LOVE GOD(:
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happy endings

Wednesday, March 10, 2010,8:30 PM

i wanna run away from all my troubles and problems):

i wanna run away from you

i wanna run away into the past

so we hurt each other.

so now you hate me and like i dont really know what to do

i could see how heartbroken you are-.-

so you got a new girl jeesh

so thats how much i meant to you

didnt know i meant so little?

did you really meant what you said?

are you happy without me in your life?i guess so.

since you're laughing so happily with THEM,

i shouldnt sit around and wish you just treat me the same

so i should deserve some happiness too right?

since you say none of this is your fault then fine

not as if you miss me so badly

*scoff* thats what you just want everyone to think

that maybe you're soft hearted and want me back as your FRIEND so badly

i just thought you were different..

i just thought you treated me the best than all my other big brothers i had

its feels wrong when i wanna talk to you abt something and you're busy talking to others abt other stuff?

just ask yourself the last time you talked to me about YOUR PROBLEMS

you talk to them more than you did to me

Im really at a loss..

i didnt mean for it to happen

sometimes we just gotta cherish what we have

it just sucks when you trust your friend so much and he doesnt trust you back and dont talk to you straight for some long time.

then he just walks away and dont bother about you

after that, he just leaves you for them.

thought you said you didnt like them?oh wait you lied..again

i ask you out and you turn me down FLAT

i ask you go somewhere with me to talk it out

gee

are you really that scared?

and you turn me down cos you're tired..AS IF IM NOT?

im trying my best to fix the situation, are you?

no. you just say you cant do anything about it. or you do you just dont bother?

i didnt know you gave up so easily

i think back to the days when we were still the best of friends and even though you were tired and stuff, you were always there for me, to go out with me, to study with me, to talk to me.

yeah i used to ignore those people who talked bad about you being an ass and i would always try my best to defend you.

WAS IT WORTH IT?yeah but i dont know about now.maybe yes?and maybe no?

you stare at me with cold eyes and it hurts..ALOT

as if we didnt share a special friendship and i was just nothing to you.maybe i was..

i didnt say you change, i didnt say i change till you said you didnt know me at all.

DID YOU EVER THINK THAT MAYBE IT WAS COS OF YOU THAT I CHANGED?

no right?cos you dont think its your fault. so everything is my fault?everyone has a part including them.

YOU ALSO INTRUDED INTO MY PRIVACY..dont ever forget..

but i didnt say anything about it like you did.

i still miss you even though you dont. i still care about you even if you dont care about me. i still wanna be your best friend and want us to be what we were last time even if you dont. and im not happy with you out of my life, im not like you who can move on faster, forgetting me so fast in 1 week.

Labels: maybe its gonna change.